Three years ago, in the midst of frustration, lack of motivation and a baby at home screaming for me, I walked out.
My Little Miss A was eight months old and I tried to go back to work. I was following the rules - get back to life as soon as possible. Don't change. Don't lose yourself.
But I had to change, and more than that - I had to stop resisting it.
Now, on the eve of walking back into that same building, I'm nervous. Not of the work, or the people, and no longer about leaving my little girl.
No.
I can tell you what it isn't, but I'm struggling to explain what it is. That feeling when you worked somewhere for nine years, then left in a whirlwind of emotions, and now find yourself heading back into territory that's so familiar and yet so strange.
Know what I mean?
18 comments:
It will all be so so fine. Once the first ten minutes is over it will be like you never left.
I know exactly what you mean.
And I'm thinking of you, because it is strange. Let us know how it goes. xx
I think you're about to discover just how much you've changed in that time. Change is scary, but it's good for you. You've grown. You'll be fine. x
You will walk back in there, a totally stronger person. Trust me... I have been there xx
Change is always for good and is inevitable Megan.
Just believe in yourself and know that you'r doing is the right thing!
And don't forget to step in YOUR building with a smile. :)
I completely understand where you are coming from. I havent had kids but I took a year off after high school before starting college. I wasnt nesicarily worried about starting college as much as I was getting back into the routine of going to classes and doing homework. It nwas so familiar, but I was a different person than I was when I had walked away from it 1 year before. You just have to set new goals and dive right in.
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Yes, I do. I quit teaching twice, both times vowing to never do it again. Finally, I found the right school and has been wonderful ever since. Embrace the scary!
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Yes. I do know what you mean. Just remember to keep breathing. Intentionally being aware of your breathing will likely make a difference in getting through the day.
I totally get what you are saying.
What you need to focus on is how confident you will feel when you walk back out again...
xx
you are a brave woman!
You're brave and you're clever and you're an entirely different person to the one you were then. It'll take a while to get used to it but you'll find your flow. And YES I totally get how you feel. xxx
Good luck to you, girl, brave move. Easy to walk out a door, so hard to walk back through. Know the feeling of hoping all will be different, and yet still familiar. Here's hoping the rewards of returning will overshadow all the reasons you wanted to leave! All the best!
Try to think of it more as a new you embarking on an exciting new adventure. :)
Good luck!
For me, I was trying to see if I can still remember how to do my previous job, things eventually fell into place but I do enjoy working from home more.
You have grown and achieved so much in your absence so it would be natural to feel this way. Hold tight to that knowledge and be the proud and confident person we see in blogland x
Yes, I know what you mean - maybe the anxiety of the unknown.
How will you feel?
How will others treat you?
Is it what you really want.
and more...
People can change a lot in 3 years.
And remember it is a choice - you can always decide if it is worth it. At least you are giving it another go.
Good luck
You will be just fine - but realise it will NOT be the same - for you or the folks you are re-joining. But it's going to be such fun finding out how it's going to work, isn't it? Welcome the challenge!
I definitely understand, as I am starting a new career after 20 years in the military and am completely terrifed. But strong women go forward in life, and we prevail. No worries hon!
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