What I want to write is a lighthearted post about something random. What's in my head and my heart is anything but.
It's been a rough week.
What I'm trying to write now is a cryptic hint at sadness, that won't hit you over the head with my problems.
What's at my fingertips is just the truth. My week so far...
The nervous excitement that I might be pregnant - only to find out I'm not. And dreading the likelihood of more doctors' visits, more tests, a change of medication.
Haunted by vivid dreams and fear right now.
Heading into the city for what was meant to be a fun catch up with some blogging friends, ending up in a panic attack as I drove - and having to go straight back home.
Safely back home, sitting on my couch, tears streaming. My husband's words, his beautiful reassurances, soothing me until I fell asleep.
Feeling overwhelmed with everything I've taken on. So tempted to stop everything, and yet so determined to just keep going.
Wondering when this all happened. I used to be stronger than this, I think. And then I remember times like this before, and I realise my strength has always been in pushing through it.
Don't let the fear take over.
And the rest of the week lays ahead of me - friends, family, spending time with my man and our girl.
I'm going to take some time this week to just be. Go for walks. Laugh. Re-read some favourite books. Sleep.
Breathe.
33 comments:
walking barefoot always helps me. xox
Will be thinking of you this week. Do something to spoil yourself because you are worth it. Big thumbs up for the honest post.
I am sorry to hear you are feeling so glum (and bummer about the pregnancy). I hope your little mindshift helps you move through it. Sending 'pick me up' vibes x
I find sunshine to be so healing when I am feeling overwhelmed. Sending you healing thoughts x
xx breathing is good... And laughing, and loving ...hoping next week is a better one hun
You are strong Megan, believe in yourself and look after yourself. So sorry to hear of your disappointment. x
Just being is good. Take care, take time. Thinking of you x
Big Hugs to you beautiful, I agree with frog ponds rock, barefoot on the grass revives you :)
Much love to you Megan. I have no other words, just being is good as Naomi said. xox.
My phone has eaten my comment twice now but I shall try to remember what I said...
Oh darling friend, I'm sorry to hear you're going through tough times. Please go gently on yourself. These are tough things to go through plus the upheaval of work too. You're but one person - a marvellous one but one all the same. I so wish I could run and give you a hug and just chat quietly with you. Drink in that little girl of yours & do some things you love but most of all be kind to yourself. Love you!
Please don't confuse, grief, disappointment and loss and the expression of those emotions with a lack of strength, it's anything but.
Wishing you well.
J x
Oh - rough indeed.
That single blue line mocks me too.
I hope your week picks up and you find the strength you need.
:-)
So much love to you lovely Megan. Go gently ok? xx
Sending you big hugs to carry you through the rest of the week. Look after yourself xx
Oh Megan...a truly rough week.
But your strength will return, you will push through. Until then, don't be hard too on yourself. Take care of the beautiful person that is you. xx
Sorry it has been a tough week Megan. There is some sunshine forecast for this weekend, I hope t helps. Take care. xx
Much love, Megan xx
There is always the beauty of another week to look forward to - especially now Spring has sprung.
Hope you find your inner smile. x
Try telling yourself that it's just one of those weeks! Tomorrow is another day, although it didn't begin that well. Know how you are feeling - have a daughter who has similar problems, and know how daunting it can be! Love - even though from the other side of the world! - and prayers for success in all aspirations! There are no boundaries!
Everyone needs a break sometimes. Infact it's pretty much a certainty. Walk, bathe, run, bike, draw, write, veg out in front of the TV with snacks, read a good book (or listen to audiobooks, really helpful), go to a movie (even if on your own during the day, it can be quite peaceful). Let loose the stress and embrace that what will come will come. Hope you feel better! :)
I hope you are able to relax and feel better soon. I hate panic attacks and have had to deal with that some, too...I've learned that I have a very low threshold...I hope you're able to figure out what you need, too. *Hugs*
Good luck!!!!!! =)
I so need a break too. I'm feeling you. I just can't stop now. Not yet, and it's so frustrating :(
You have such a wonderfully supportive husband and beautiful daughter, and this week I'm sure they'll give you all the love and comfort you need. Take care. xx
Oh love, I do understand what you are feeling here. You are blessed with a beautiful family and are such a beautiful woman and mama too - hope you get the rest you are looking for x
I find that when I am over juggling all the little balls of to-dos, it is best to let the understudies, who are lined up behind me trying to help me, just take over the circus. What a good husband you have to know when to step in. My heart goes out to you, and I wish I was there to help you out. Feel better soon, love.
Yes, just be.
Be kind to yourself.
Be gentle on yourself.
Be proud of yourself.
Just be.
x
Sorry to hear you've had a rough week. Hopefully next week is better for you. Your hubby sounds awesome - glad he was there for you when you needed him.
I'm so sorry Megan that you are having a bleak time. I know them, they can be soul crushing. You need to take some time to focus on you. Then the you that you want to be can blossom. Thinking of you xx
PS So proud you posted this in all its honesty xx
Ok, I am now all caught up. So much amazing advice and support in the above comments. Take time to be still. Eat. Relax. Laugh. Love. xxxxxxx
Weeks like this are incredibly painful, and then when you look back you feel so proud for having survived them. Love and peace to your heart Megan. xxxx
Oh Megan, I am so sorry for your week that was. Shitful. You have some wonderful advice here, and upon reading your more recent post, you sound like you are being gentle on yourself. I am just sorry I was oblivious. xxx
Oh Megan. So sorry. Sending you hugs. I think the very first thing on your list is enough to make everything else seem off balance. Don't mistake your pain for weakness.
You're amazing. And there's a lot going on.
I love that you've been true to yourself and are letting yourself be.
xx
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