Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Before I was a mum...
I smiled, but not as widely as I do now. I lived, but not as bravely as I do now.
I used to feel like something was missing.
I had life rules: not to get married young, not to have kids until I was in my 30s, to maintain my career.
And with the breaking of each rule came true satisfaction and freedom.
I regretted not trying my hand at writing.
I was happy with my job, though, and I put more effort into that than anything else.
Steve and I rarely, very rarely, argued.
I didn't do anything particularly crazy or funny. Just went about my days quietly.
Except this: one day I said, 'Let's do the Overland Track'. So we trained, and we did it.
Five days of hiking in the wilderness taught me more than 23 years of day-to-day life had.
No one ever told me I couldn't do anything - except me.
Steve showed me how to be calm(er), how to shrug things off, and how to channel that energy into challenging myself.
I knew I wanted to be a mum. I didn't think I'd be a particularly good one, though.
And I certainly never knew that motherhood would change my life in the ways it has.
This is part of Laney's challenge, March to Your Own Beat.
Brilliant Megan! I am loving all the answers to Laney's prompts!!
ReplyDeleteGreat post Megan. Nothing can prepare you for motherhood, how much it makes you smile, how much it changes you, how much it makes you feel like a completely different person to "before" you were a mum...thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautiful...
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