For Steve

When I look at you, I see the man I first spotted a table away.

I hear my thought, 'I have to know who that is', the music that played.

When I look at you, I see our first date. I feel the butterflies in my stomach.

I hear our voices, filled with excitement for what lay ahead.

When I look at you, I see the man who loved me no matter what.

I hear my disbelief and I hear your certainty.

When I look at you, I see your face the day we bought our house.

I hear the noises of the work we've done to make it ours.

When I look at you, I see you in shorts in the snow, I see us on our crazy adventures.

I hear our laughter.

When I look at you, I see us on our wedding day, smiling at each other.

I hear nothing but the certainty in my heart.

When I look at you, I see the lives we've created.

When I look at you, I see the husband and dad you are. That you've fought to be.

When I look at you, I see strength, determination, vulnerability and love.

When I look at you, I see you, for everything I've known you to be.

When I can't see you, I feel your strength and assurance.

When I look at you, I see the story of our life. The story that we're writing every day.