Sometimes I express a little hint of overwhelm.
Life is good, but every so often it's a lot. The pressure, the routine, the busyness, the lack of busyness - whatever. Everything can feel hard in a certain moment. Everyone feels overwhelmed sometimes.
The answer is often the same: "So, don't do so much." That answer isn't for everyone, no, it seems especially reserved for those whose lives are so fluid (unimportant?) that they could, it's perceived, give up everything in a flash.
The idea is that life would be far less intense if I did less stuff. Except... no. It wouldn't. The only things that could go are the very things I need - the things I love, that I do for me and no one else. These are the pieces of Joy in my mind, holding the darkness down by the throat and laughing outright at the way she can take his breath away. (Did you know Joy was so bloodthirsty?)
And so we do this little dance. The people talking about me and how I shouldn't pressure myself, me wishing that instead of being dismissed I could be offered some actual support. Neither one really understanding the other.
Both perhaps a little overwhelmed. Life does that.
I reckon I get to a point every week where I stop and think I am just overdoing it and that i could just give everything associated with my personal goals away and have a cleaner house and maybe even watch some TV but I always turn around shortly after to realize that I'm happiest when reaching for something that I may never actually get. It's a strange thing.
ReplyDeleteThere is no answer at all is there. If I try to walk away from the things I don't have to do I feel just as overwhelmed, sometimes more.
ReplyDeleteI love that joy is so bloodthirsty.
Love this post and can definitely relate to every word! Hang in there, balance will come...even if it's only for a day ;-)
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Love this post and can definitely relate to every word! Hang in there, balance will come...even if it's only for a day ;-)
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I know exactly how this is! The things that fill my days bring so much joy but are still so time consuming and exhausting, but I'd never choose to give them up. I'd get rid of work first and as it is, I only do a regular 2 days. Enjoy the good things!
ReplyDeleteJust do what works for you honey x
ReplyDeleteI can really relate to this Megan. As much as I may grumble about feeling overwhelmed, it's those things that engulf me that also bring a smile to my face.
ReplyDeleteI get this. Had a conversation with a friend this week...about what we do, and it's often too much, but it's the joy. The dance never quite ends, does it ?
ReplyDeleteBother. You know I'm only just getting the hang of dealing with the overwhelmed by mostly leaving out what I'd like to do for me.
ReplyDeleteYour solution of keeping those things does sound better in the long run/more sustainable.
Conundrums! Good luck with yours.
Very well said.
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